Emptying My Ego
Saturday, March 15, 2014
Saturday of the First Week of Lent
“But I say to you, love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you, that you may be children of your heavenly father.” (Matthew 5:44)
The Lenten season is a great time to reflect on our spiritual lives, or to give up something so we can experience a fraction of the suffering Jesus felt or to contemplate how to live a more Godly life. This year my Lenten journey is to attempt to empty my self-image, which includes my preconceived notions, biases and ego needs.
I recently finished a book by Richard Rohr in which he explained that I need to find a way to go beyond my own self-image that keeps me confined and unable to fully embrace God's love. Think of a cup that is filled to the brim. How can anything be added to fill it further? Or imagine holding on to something tightly with both hands. It is impossible to hold onto anything else. In both instances, the glass must first be emptied and the hands must release their grip. In the same way, I have biases, fears, grudges and ego needs – my collective self-image – that fill my cup and occupy my hands. In order to be God-centered, not self-centered, I need to empty my self-image.
With emptiness of ego, comes freedom. My old attachments no longer possess me. I can gain the freedom to refill with God. As with all relationship building with God, this involves contemplation of self, prayer and an openness for me to be God-centered.
I come to you with thoughts, worries and ego needs that fill my heart, leaving no room for You.
Help me to empty myself of these attachments, both tangible and those in my heart.
In doing so may I appreciate, and in a small way, imitate
the emptying that Jesus endured on the cross on my behalf. Amen.
Senior Vice President Managed Facilities, Avera McKennan Hospital & University Health Center
DEUTERONOMY 26:16-19 • PSALM 119:1-2, 4-5, 7-8 • MATTHEW 5:43-48